LIFE IN A FIX!

so...what do you do when your life is in a fix? . You can't take a step ahead or a step back because there are too many ramifications, apprehensions and assumptions attached to everything you do. In such situations, Do you just stand still in the moment and let it pass or do you analytically weigh the whole thing and make a decision or simply close your eyes,imagine it never happened and cover yourself with a veil of escapism.

Sometimes i think, growing up is a curse. You tend to understand things more, you can anticipate the repercussions or your actions and you tend to manage your life logically. Well of course, in whatever age we are, we always think, we are rational, logical and the most intelligent person on this earth. Like all the 'gyan ' has been given to us in inheritance.

We all make mistakes, infact, mistakes is the thing we do 90% of the time ( still thinking we are right) . We mess up our lives and other's around us, following some stupid fundas and logic we once thought were right.. i mean seriously ..wht crap! If at all, life had a ctrl+z button i would have erased some specific parts on our life. ( not all, i love my life)

This 'indecisiveness' kinda gives you an all-time uneasy feeling., especially to people who like controlling thier own lives. You feel weak, broken, and powerless. You are blank as you don't know what to do? its as if, you are walking in too much fog, you its somewhere around but you dont know where to take a turn.. coulds of confusion..huh! there are People who think that they are the sole owner of thier lives and every step they take and everything that happens in thier life should be governed by them. But, whtever, we all know that this is all bull shit!

and i think even this blog is kinda..bull shit! or may be not! its again a fix!

when i was in school, we had "Gandhi's talisman", printed on the second page of our school diary. it read soemthign like this:

" I will give you a talisman. Whenever you are in doubt, or when the self becomes too much with you, apply the following test. Recall the face of the poorest and the weakest man [woman] whom you may have seen, and ask yourself, if the step you contemplate is going to be of any use to him [her]. Will he [she] gain anything by it? Will it restore him [her] to a control over his [her] own life and destiny? In other words, will it lead to swaraj [freedom] for the hungry and spiritually starving millions?
Then you will find your doubts and your self melt away."

Well of course!I modified it and removed the poverty, swaraj and weakest man.. and blah blah blah from it to "peeople i know and i care for". This basically teaches you to be selflessness. hmm..i am again confused if this is to be followed anymore or not. Selflessness, self scarifice and etc, things like this can lead to un happiness and pain if you are not handling them well and kinda registering everything u r sacrificing.. So i tend to stay away from such greatness.. In my view, everything is alright if you are not hurting anyone else around you.

This is my version of talisman that i now follow. Whenever in doubt and despair , i try not to hurt anybody and let the moment pass. Letting go of things sometimes help! stop thinking about yourself( don't take a step forward) , do not sacrifice your life for someone ( don't take a step back) , just stay in the moment ( face it!) and loose your control over your life ( let go!), let things happen their own way ( let it pass) , then you will feel that everything does happen right in the end weather you are poking your nose in the making of it or not.

After all, life is good anyways and one should avoid messing it up with thier stupid logical thinking!!